The Sound of Fire
Jim Savio
They stand in a line - thirty-seven people in all
At the front, the husband-father looks down and off to his left
His wife’s oldest friend stands stooped-over at the end of the line
Neck craned – she waits for a sign
At the top of the hour, his vigil over
The husband father turns, and his ghost-smile catches her eye.
High on her toes she reaches for the shoulder of the teenage boy ahead of her
Then his hand moves to the shoulder of his married sister
Sister’s falls gentle on the worn coat of the oldest man in the line.
He lifts his wrinkled fingers to the shoulder of his great-niece
And so it goes until at last the youngest brother
moves his hand with three missing fingers to the shoulder of his brother-in-law
Feeling the familiar claw he mines a deep breath,
leans forward, exhales, and pushes the button
The sound of fire is loud in the room
The body of his wife, mother of their children is conveyered into the flames
Wrapped in the shroud she embroidered for the occasion
In a shower of late afternoon light falling from the clerestory windows,
her body is made ash and some of it rushes up the chimney
One with the wind
One with the light
One with the now approaching night
They say goodbye on the street and scatter in the near dark
Though one among them is missing
When something’s lost and something’s gained
Love is in the balance
When I Die….
When I Die by Jim Savio
Whhen the time has come to set this wondrous, painful, whip-fast life a-drift
The memory of you in me always
To venture forth like someone blind with adventure
With a longing I can’t explain
When I’ve had what time I need
Afraid of nothing, the greatest fears of all behind me now
I hope to assure you: there’s nothing to fear aside from apathy
Those anxieties about letting go
The worry…what will they think?
Fear of failure
That frightening thought of loving you too little
All gone
All regrets
All guilt and shame erased
Scatter my memory along the Brooklyn streets where I once played as a child
On the Shawangunk trails, the waterfalls and lakes of my four years away from the world
In the Gulf Stream’s current flowing north between Key West and Mariel
On the sands of ar-Rub’ al Khali where I was so so small in the hands of the world
In all of these and in you my wife and child and friends
I found my muse
Traveling North
I ride north as the earth turns and the sun bows for the last time
I applaud its brilliance with my eyes
And I await the darkness
We’ve parted again; just another practice run for going north
I want to watch the sun together
I want to hold it there, and be with you, ok?
When the sky grows quiet, then dim, and dark for the last time
In Another Land
I sit at your desk
I look at the photographs you have pinned up
I look at the titles of the books on your shelves
I find you
Again
I walk toward the sea
I look at the sandals and flip-flops left waiting
I look at the sand where you once walked
I see you
Again